Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I know I have slacked on my postings...fact is I have slacked on myself. Life has been extremely tricky for me this past summer and fall and I am ringing in the New Year trying to make things right. With the time that has past, I should be able to boast about the next great weight loss, but instead I must confess my sins. When stress hits me, so do pounds.
When summer hit I had to make all those costumes for Alice In
Wonderland, I posted saying I fell in the rabbit hole and I can't get out. Unfortunately it is so true. Every time I reached for my way out of the hole, I fell deeper in it. And now here I sit professing to you this cold December afternoon that I put pounds back on.
With giving so much hope to others, I didn't want to profess to you my disappointments. Although I made 2010 a lifestyle change, I allowed my stresses to take over. So I find myself tackling how to live my life in a healthy way and how to do it managing my stresses.
As before, I must first realize that memories are a wonderful thing. You have memories of how miserable you were just 10 pounds heavier, to memories of how wonderful you felt conquering a mountain. I have my blog to look back on. If I go back to January 21, it reminds me of how sick I felt, and how I knew I had to take charge of my health if I wanted to live. I am reminded that in just 2 short months I lost nearly 20 pounds eating right and exercising just a few hours a week. I am grateful, because it reminds me I can do it. Only this time I have to do it with some added stresses and with less opportunity of time. I have got to learn to keep myself motivated and on the right track.
So as I confess to you my errs, I would also like to profess that I am back to getting my health on track. I hope to be in the 150's again by early March. The holidays are going to be hard as I have many private gigs to do and they make it impossible to eat, then sometimes I eat at the gigs. But I will abstain from eating the wrong things and save indulgences for Christmas day. I can do it, I will do it.
So to you my friends, my readers, I hope I haven't laid too much disappointment on you. I can only state that this is the beginning of the end of stress winning in my life, and instead I am going to be the winner learning to cope with the stress and continue down my path of a healthier and happier life.
"To err is human, to recover is DIVINE".